chapter one

so...

its been a really really long time since ive posted anything on here. and i think im going to do a new blog. heres some reasons why. i moved to utah in december. its a new chapter in my life. i have goals im reaching for. and many many projects i want to start, finish, and realize. it is a new adventure. more to be coming soon.

new

noting thats its been quite a long time since i have last posted anything on here, i thought its about time to do so.  in the last few months life has taken a new turn for me, a fresh perspective, and harsh realities.  on july 1st i was admitted to the hospital, with what seemed to be an irregular and very fast heart rate.  over the consecutive 10 days as i lay in my hospital bed i learned of my newly developed flutter, my dilated heart, and conclusively, heart failure.  i know that heart disease is a hereditary attribute in my family, but i never thought that i, a young man of 29 would have to endure such a life altering experience.  you grow up thinking and feeling your invincible, and even though im no teenager anymore, i feel more like one, than i do a 30 year old man.  in the past month or so i have been out of the hospital i have been dealing with the reality of this.  being barely mobile at times. not being able to walkup the slightest incline for 10 yards without feeling like my heart is going to jump out of my chest. trying to stick to a strict diet of diabetes, low sodium and low fat. being on 10 different medications at once. not being able to sleep for weeks at a time. boredom like ive never known it before. and a chance to reflect, think, and grow spiritually in a capacity i havent been involved in for years. i wish there was some way to speed this all up. im trying to do what i can to recover as soon as possible, but its still very slow.  through all this, i have learned that i am in control of my life.  the decisions i make on a daily basis do in fact effect me and the lay in place the subsequent consequences.  i just have to do the right thing, regardless of my urges or appetites.  and thats what i have decided to do. the right thing. all the time. every time.

RESOLVE

ive recently made a decision to be better. live better. do better. talk better. act better. eat better. just in general, in all ways i can fathom, to be better. i have made up my mind. i need to be the best me i can possibly be. the end.

blaaaaaaaaaah blah

yesterday i had one of those dreams. you know, one of those dreams that you wake up in the middle of but you desperately want to get back into it because it was so much fun or so vivid or just the reality you want.  why do nightmares do the exact opposite?  i can remember ever since ive had nightmares, i would wake up, and be scared.  when i would be able to calm down enough to sleep again i would be put right back where i left off, or, it would just start al over again and be more vivid and scary.  and no matter how many times i would wake up from it, every single time i would go back to sleep, it was all waiting there for me.

this is also something that applies to another aspect in life, habits.  so heres the deal.  bad habits are sooo easy to start, very hard to stop.  good habits on the other hand are very hard to start, and oh so easy to stop.  i know we all know this already and all think the same thing. why?  i dont know.  i wish i did. i wish i knew the answers to the impossible questions, but alas, i do not. so dont ask me.  

me and friends of mine have found a new affinity for a childhood game called sardines. so for you not in the know its like backwards hide and go seek.  one person hides then the rest of the group go and find the individual but when you find them, you hide with them, until the last person finds the whole group.  so were doing it at my pals house, in the pitch black night.  its mostly empty, and kinda spooky, but a lot of fun!  were going to have another go at it this sunday night.  but this time the upstairs is going to be included! OH JOY! its going to be fun, some people will no doubt hurt themselves, but its a game, collateral damage can be expected.

not my typical wednesday night

my brother jordan told me i blog about weird things.  im random. lets just get that out there.  but tonight was lovely!  first was an amazing lesson in institute, and i learned a lot personally about what i need to do to be a better missionary... followed by, build your own ice cream cookie samich at the toll house place next to the movie theater. i got one side snickerdoodle, the other side choc chip, and chocolatate ice cream.  it was delish.  then, to cap the night off, we saw coraline.  so great, pretty creepy, and theres absolutely no need for it to be 3D.  speaking of which, whats the deal with all these movies having to be 3D as of late. it doesnt enhance the experience since theres little to no exciting times that the 3D feature is utilized well.  its the same movie with a slight annoyance of having to wear these glasses over my existing glasses... dumb dumb dumb.  and i noticed all the upcoming animated movies are ALL going to be in 3D. if your going to do that, make something come out at me, make me thing a missile is going to hit me in the face, or a tiger is going to slash my face, or a zombie is going to eat my face. dont ust make it a regular movie and convert it to 3D. its not impressive. its annoying. but go see coraline, please do. its great!

CURSIVE

by faaaar, one of the best bands to ever see!!!  an amazing show full of energy, angst, and a smokin hot cellist.  if you have ever listened to the music, and even liked it a little, if your a fan of shows, if your a fan of music, i most highly suggest you take the chance to see them on their upcoming tour. theyll be here in california mid march. im going, you should be going too!!!  not to mention a very highly anticipated new full length theyre releasing on march 10th called "mama, im swollen"

gasoline

who else could look this good while just being out and pumping some gasoline... none other than the gorgeous Mila Kunis.  she just keeps getting better with age.  more and more betterer.  as a good friend of mine said recently  "shes tasty"

SHE & HIM

so, last night i went to have my future wife, and baby mamma serenade me with sweet sweet songs, in front of a crowd even.  it was a really cute gesture, and i appreciate it more than she'll ever know.  if you havent had the chance to hear my loves beautiful sweet voice, you should go pick up her album, i suggest vinyl, it brings out a certain something that i just cant explain.

           the LP

she told me she was thinking about me here...

its been a while...

so heres the short end of it.  i broke up with my lady friend a couple weeks ago, and i dont remember having so much fun being single, though im keeping my eye out for a new lady to befriend.  work and school have kept me mostly busy these past couple months.  being busy has felt good.  i swore off of soda again yesterday, and im hitting the gym again starting today.  new resolutions, new friends, new times, good times.  and i need to go to disneyland a whole lot more than i have since my pass expires in december, like 2 months from now.  help me utilize it if you please!

C PAP

i now have my breathing apparatus for to be helping me with my sleep apnea.  its a small nose mask that straps around my head at the top and around my face.  its somewhat claustrophobic and it bugs the crap out of me still.  not only because i have to wear it, but i have to now get used to sleeping on my back, which i dont do.  its a whole ordeal.  but hopefully when/if i get used to this contraption i will be having normal sleep, and not be so tired all the time. its also supposed to help bring my high blood pressure way down and help with the good ol diabetes.  

i am tired of being a shoe whore.  i like shoes way too much. i own way too many. i never wear a lot of them.  i need to get down to the nitty gritty, but i cant seem to part from them.  i love the simple shoes. chucks, plain ol vans, boat shoes.  but then it gets worse. i have this thing for nike.  i have too many. especially since theyre espensive. i need help with not buying more.  but they just keep releasing amazing dunks after amazing dunks... i cant help it.  im a pretty plain kinda guy.  in my design, and my tatse i am pretty plain, but these dunks grab me with some kind of invisible, and un reasonable tractorbeam, and pull me in.  theres at least like 10 pairs out there i really really still want.  whats my deal?!  i need to stop. but if i stop, then im going to move on to sperrys (boat shoes) and get every possible colorway i can. i need some serious help.

arent you tired of getting dirt kicked in your face?

dont you want a taste of the good life

see what it tastes like?

the good life.  life is good.  im happy.  if you dont know, now you know.

MUSIC TO MY EYES

so in the next few months is what i like to call the "show season".  let me explain.  every fall for as long as i can remember i have been going to shows, let me rephrase.  since i have been steadily going to shows over the last 15 years or so, the fall has always been the great turn out.  and theres lots to be looking forward to, looooots!  heres a small list of some of the candidates.

jeremy enigk

the faint

jaguar love

portugal the man

the aquabats (of which i havent seen play in nearly 5 years)

hot water music

vampire weekend

foals

tokyo police club

CSS

cut copy, the presets

valiant thorr

dr. dog

anthony green

 

it looks like its gonna be a good fall my friends...

a good fall indeed!!!

non vampire weekend

this past week/weekend have been some of the best days ive had in a very long time...  i just thought to myself, i like this.

its nice to feel nice.

m ma ma ma mania!

soooo, got the chance to ride the new toy story ride in california adventure yesterday.  simply put, amazing!  it was glorious on all accounts.  i seriously dont know how else to describe it.  its like buzz, but a ton more fun. and if you need to cool off during your day, its nice and air conditioned.  the imagineers outdid themselves this time around.  aaaaaaaaaaaaah, i just cant wait to go back and ride it again and again!  

P.S.  the line was only about 40 minutes all day long!!!  for a ride thats ben open for only 2 weeks to the general public, thats amazing!  when the subs opened back up last year with the new nemo theme, the lines were hours long for the entire summer and into the fall.  i didnt ride till February i think, due to the huge lines, and the unimpressive nature of the ride.  go ride mayhem mania.  it is easily my new favorite ride!

uuuuuuuuugh

its getting hot again...

im a big baby with heat...

hot summer sucks...

semi-automatic

so last night we said g'bye to a friend who is moving to the salt lake area of booootah (utah for you laymen).  it was nice and chill.  filled with conversations of music, past loves, and just good ol good times.  i used my new camera and a feature i am going to be using a whole bunch is...

when you hold down the shoot button, it takes multiple pictures!  so my friends, thought i took around 5 pictures, i unsuspectingly took around 50.  theres not enough that can be said about candids.  they capture the real person, fun, weird, whatever.  its them.  so heres a few samples...

CARL ZEISS

this is the camera i just got...

its a neat lil point n shoot.  my last ones screen cracked, and because best buy loves me and my constant patronage, the exchanged for me this one.  im excited to play with it. i will be taking a lot more pictures of my life than i have in the past. look out for upcoming updates and pictures.

NEWS FLASH

sperrys are fixed, good as new.  and i made a new friend of a shoe repairman.  he was funny, and he fixed my favorite shoes.  were bff now.

had a blasty blast

went to dland with the riverside family and had a blasty blast.  heres some proof.

christianne trying to fit in my back pocket

me taking a rest on a christianne shaped stool

space mountain, im trowing up peace signs, cause im from out of town.

my new hat, fit like a glove.  like oj's glove.

thunder mountain line.  candid shot. we had some fun.

the only bummer of the day was my tried and true 2 year old sperrys crapped out at the end of the night.  now i have to go get them fixed, theres no way im tossing them, theyll get bronzed first!

My rhymes are so potent that in this small segment...

i make all of the ladies in the area pregnant

yes, sometimes my lyrics are sexist, 

but you lovely bi****s and hos should know im trying to correct this!

so my friend scott has been away for 3 weeks in africa doing some humanitarian aid.  so a bunch of us decided it would be a great idea to take some family photos and put them up around the house before they make it back.  here a couple.  and i was lucky enough to be a baby daddy.  it was so hilarious, we took about a bajillion pictures this night, and we all laughed so hard our faces and our bellies hurt.  our little dysfunctional family is soo cute!

sunday

today was one of my favorite sundays in a very long time.  aside from falling asleep and missing the much anticipated quatro de mayo margarita madness...  it was a good day.